Writing Diaries...

i got a new diary for this new year. I was thinking for a long time whether to write a diary or not. If yes what i am going to write? if not, i dont have a heart to threw it out.Diary was pleasing to look and pages are fresh enough to start writing. I have opinion during my school and college days, People who are in some problem or Some troubles write diary. I have seen many news like

"XXX Commited suicide- reason written in diary"

"XXX Diary is taken for Police Investigation"

So i never made an effort to write something in a note or diary. Before i pen down my thoughts, what will happen if somebody will study this, How they will judge me.. Blah blahh stuffs running inside my mind.I made up my mind to start writing Something daily.

I took a pen wrote first line Today's 21st January like that. Keeping all Negative thoughts aside i started writing the day to day events happening in my life, how i think about people, how i reacted, today its 1st feb 2011 i read last 10 pages in my diary. i am very happy to read my page.

I feel like i got a new friend to share my opinion, sorrows,joy. When i read my pages again i judge myself, able to find my faults.. I am not feeling Lonely, everytime i sit idle, i think about what to write today in my page, i am studying the pages again and again as if i am studying a novel. I have studied many blogs saying diary writing is great, wonderful, awesome..

i am very happy to say i write diary daily:) My Inspiration for writing Diary are many people who are unknown to me but i study their blogs regularly.

PS: Where i keep my diary is secret known to me only ;) ;)

Proffessionals..

When ever i face some Problem, I used to react very Strongly, which i wish to change in me. But i hear advice from people to "Behave Professionally". I have seen Many People behaving very proffessionaly. Though i am not able to change completely, I am trying to change myself to this So called "Professional Behaviour"

Let me tell you some scenario and i will narate my behaviour and "Professional behaviour" so that people can understand my difficulty in changing :( :(

case 1 :

I will get a call from friend or family in office. God Made my voice frequency a bit high :( I will be Speaking blah blahh i can see my friend pinging " Behave professionally, attend personal calls inside conf room " :(

I am really working to reduce my volume. But manufacturing defect ! :( But i found a solution for this, though i cant reduce my volume, i am moving to conf room when i get a call :)

Case 2:

I am very Stright forward. If i face some problem i will directly go to that person Say my problem. This is something Very serious problem, because of which i lost many friends.

Three of us sitting in place, the other two were conversing some problem with a third Person's behaviour. I will hear to them or Knod to them. After sometime the third Person will come in to picture. My friends who faced some difficulties with third Person's behaviour speaks as if the third person is the best Person in this world. May be a "Proffessional Behaviour"

When i Speak with the third Person, some negative things will be running about the person which will make my behaviour different to that person :( :( . The Third Person will decide i am avoiding him/her The third Person will stop speaking to me :( :(

I need to learn this Proffessional behaviour. But again changing is very difficult in this case also

:( Smiling in front of the person and cursing at his back is something very difficult for me to do.

But i am changing to meet the "Professional Behaviour"

Hope Things happen for some good reasons!! Wish you all a very happy Pongal and maatu pongal ;);)